Thursday, February 23, 2012

Day 6

Megan continues to really struggle with pain and nausea. She had an awful night and the nurses were very busy. This was the very first negative experience with a nurse. We are glad to have Lindsay again this morning. Dr. Tomayo ( and entourage) came in. Dr. Tomayo is very happy with Meg's progress overall. He is trying lower doses of nausea meds but more often. They have taken away the toradal for pain because you can only have it for five days. They have taken away the background iv pain med and she is on a 100 mg. Fentanyl patch. Now they have ordered the morphine tablets for breakthrough pain. Unfortunately they have not yet arrived. Another kind of miserable day.

The good news is that Megan was moved to a different room - away from the roommate from h$&@! Also, the nutritionist is meeting with Meg at 11 tomorrow. And at 2 pm we are to go to a class on tube feeding. The person who teaches about diabetes/insulin came by today. Meg felt so awful that she just listened. But I practiced giving shots to a sponge! Somehow, I think giving Meg a shot is going to be a lot different!

They have just brought a new roomie in. We'll keep our fingers crossed.

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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Day 5

Megan continues to battle pain and nausea. It seems like the G-tube gets clogged up and this muck sits in her stomach. Once we can get it to drain it relieves some of the nausea. They now have the feeding rate where they want it to stay. The next step will be to go to subcutaneous insulin. We will need to learn how to regulate the food and insulin. This part is a little scary. But, we'll listen and learn.

Meg was able to walk today! She worked with the OT and did arm exercises. Then she went on loop down the hall.

Gradually, (really gradually) she is becoming less bloated and swollen. Once that happens she'll be a lot more comfortable.

I went to a very nice Ash Wednesday service at the chapel. We are making baby steps each day. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Day 4: afternoon

After they got Megan up and moving she began to feel better. Suffice it to say that the plumbing is working, which is a big deal. A whole bunch of stuff came out of her stomach and she really feels MUCH better. She's watching tv and eating her sugar free Popsicle. Life is good. Pease keep praying for diminished need for pain and nausea meds.

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Day 4

Today is a hard day. Megan has a lot of pain and nausea this morning. Dr. Tomayo (correct spelling) came in. He increased her nausea meds, ordered more lasix and something to bring down her heart rate. He said 4th day pain is common. They are going to do another chest xray and possibly a scan of her bladder since she's been unable to urinate.

We're hoping the meds kick in and she feels better soon. Prayers for pain and nausea and for her lungs and bladder. She feels so bad she can't get on her feet and that's bad for her lungs. They are taking her now for another chest xray.

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Monday, February 20, 2012

Day 3: afternoon

Megan is sitting up in a chair. It's good for her lungs and circulation. She's been up for over an hour. Yay, Meggie. The doc gave permission for her to sip water and have sugar-free popsicles. Of course, it will drain right down her gastric tube but it sure tastes good going down! She's getting a behind the ear patch to help with the nausea. She's also getting zofran and phenergan. She's getting some lasix (sp.?). That should help with some of the water she's retaining. After that they are going to remove the catheter. The doctor was really pleased with her progress. As I finish this, Megan has ordered a sugar-free sprite and popsicle. And, she's been sitting for 2-1/2 hours! Yippee!

Day 3: still progressing

From Megan's mom: Megan continues to do well. Her hemoglobin came up nicely after two units of blood. She is scheduled for an xray of her chest just as a precaution. We got moved to the transplant unit last night. We've had wonderful nurses all along, but these guys really know their stuff on this floor!

OT came by this morning and Megan sat and stood again. She also brushed her teeth and washed up. That pretty much zonked her out and she's resting again now. Pain and nausea continue to be a problem and her head is really fuzzy. It frustrates her. She's dizzy and seeing double.

Please continue to keep her in prayer. If you want to write a comment on her blog, I'm sure she'd like to hear from people. I'll update again this afternoon.

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Sunday, February 19, 2012

Day 2: she sits, she stands, she takes a few steps!

From Megan's mom: Physical therapy came in and Megan was able to move today! It was so exciting to see her up. She experienced a little "pull" when she sat up but said that sitting and standing didn't cause any more pain. She sat for quite a while on the edge of the bed and then stood briefly. The second time she stood she took a few steps along the side of the bed. She has been awake for over an hour and is now watching t.v. for the first time (would you believe a MEDICAL show?). This is great progress!

We could still use prayer for pain and also that those islet cells really do their job. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers!

Day 2. More progress

From Megan's mom: Dr. Tomaya (still not sure of exactly his name) came and looked at the wound. He was happy with the way it looked and said it was clear that there is no bleeding. This is great! But her hemoglobin is low because of blood lost during surgery. So she's receiving a unit of blood and they are still pushing the fluids so that her body can better repair itself. Her NG tube was taken out. It was clearing stuff from her stomach. The diabetes doctor came in and said they are giving the insulin so the islets can rest but is optimistic that Megan will be able to use less and less insulin. They want the blood sugar between 100-125. Yesterday it was all over the place but overnight they got it right at 100! Again, good news!

Physical therapy is supposed to come in this afternoon and Megan will sit up. They've also lowered the amount of the medication that she gets by pushing a button. Today she said her pain is at a 5. Up until now she's been saying her level is an 8 (out of 10). Mostly she is still sleeping. She looks pretty relaxed today.

I was blessed to find a Lutheran church right between the apartment and the hospital. It was good to be able to worship. More later, no doubt!

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Saturday, February 18, 2012

A better afternoon and surprise

Fro Megan's mom:
Megan was given Toridal (sp.?) and it seemed to help a lot with the pain. They also gave her more i.v. fluids and that seemed to hop slow down her heart rate. Last night's nurses and today's nurses have been wonderful. They are skilled, very attentive and compassionate. If we can keep this streak going Megan should make a good recovery.

We learned this morning that Megan had TWO spleens! She had her spleen out a couple of years ago. When they removed the pancreas they found a small, working spleen behind it! It seems that every time Meg goes in for surgery they discover some other anomaly! How odd. As her mother I am probably responsible for this. Moms get all the blame don't they?! I never took any medications during pregnancy or labor and delivery- where are these things coming from?

This afternoon Megan was awake and alert for the first time. She is still in a lot of pain but it was good to see her back. She needed more pain meds and shortly after that she was sleeping again. The rest will help her heal, we hope.

They to take the tube out of her nose today or tomorrow and there's a good chance she'll be moved to the transplant floor tomorrow. Progress! She still has along hard job, but she's doing well at his point. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers!
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Day 1 tube feeding

A lovely nurse came in and set up the beginning of Megan's tube feeding. She will start today at 10 mg per hour and they will raise the rate by 10 mg each day. Dr Tomaso came in and he felt she was doing well. They were not seeing anything unexpected. Since her heart rate is elevated, he ordered more saline. He thinks the elevated heartrate might be caused by dehydration. They are monitoring her to see how she reacts to the food. She seems to be resting fairly well right now, though I know she is still in considerable pain.

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Day 1 morning

From Megn's mom: Lew came over to the hospital at 8 this morning when they opened. Meggie is still in considerable pain. They did the ultrasound of her liver, which involved moving her around quite a bit. Then Dr Dunn's fellow examined her so she has had a rough morning. Her nurse Rachel is working hard to get her pain under control. Physical therapy wants her up and walking but Rachel wants Megan to be in less pain before she tries that. They are still checking her blood sugar every 30 minutes and administering insulin. She is quite nauseous and they are giving her phenergan for that. She can push her pain pump every 10 minutes but is so groggy she forgets to do it. Hoping to get this pain under control soon. That is our prayer now. If I haven't called you, please don't be offended. There isn't much time or a place to have phone calls. Thanks for your prayers and thoughts. Our biggest prayer now is for some pain relief.

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Friday, February 17, 2012

Final update for 2/17

From Megan's mom: Well, now Lew and I have had our drinks and dinner. I am waiting in the family waiting room to find out where Megan will be taken next. We have no more news to report. It's not a day we would want to repeat but we are so grateful to Dr. Dunn for working long, hard hours to help our girl. We'll update tomorrow. I'm on my way to 6B, which happily is NOT the ICU!

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We're out!

From Megan's mom: the surgery is complete and Megan is in recovery for a couple of hours. We have spoken with the surgeons and they were pleased with how it went. They said they had a hard time getting the pancreas out. Apparently it had drifted up since her spleen is gone and to quote Dr. Dunn,"the tail was up in her armpit". We tried to find out about how many islets were harvested. The number was not as high as we had hoped but Dr. Dunn said that Lew and I were more concerned about that than she was. They did a biopsy of her liver just to be sure but she doesn't expect to find anything. Tomorrow they will do an ultrasound of her bile duct to be sure there isn't any obstruction from the islets. They have a pain management plan in place and will adjust accordingly. All in all, it's a good result so far. Lew and I are at Stubs and Herbs and I, the non-drinker, am having a rum and coke! I'll probably stagger back to the hospital. At this point we don't know if she'll be in icu or the transplant floor so hold off on flowers. She's going to be in a lot of pain for the next few days anyway. Thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers. We know they made a difference. Signing off to attend to my drink.

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They are closing her up!

From Megan's mom: They just called to say they had finished the infusion and will do a liver biopsy. Then they'll close her up and she will go to recovery. We expect to see Dr. Dunn once Meggie's in the recovery room. Maybe some light at the end of this particular tunnel? The next few days are going to be rough. We'll be glad when we have them under our belt!

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they are infusing the islets now

From Megan's mom: We finally broke down and asked them to call for an update. The nurse didn't have time to talk but she said that they were almost finished infusing and that Megan is doing well. That's all we know right now.

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Still waiting...

From Megan's mom:
The nurse just called from the o.r. and said that they are in a holding pattern. They have finished with reconnecting everything inside Megan but are waiting for the cells from the lab. They think the cells will be ready about 4:00 or 4:30. So we probably have another two hours, then the transplant of the cells, then closing her up and recovery room. We're anxious to know how many cells they are able to harvest. Everything is going well in the operating room. Keep praying! :)

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That awful pancreas is out!

From Megan's mom:

Dr. Dunn just sent word that the pancreas is out and everything is going well. Now the pancreas will go to the lab where they will isolate the islet cells that produce insulin. We're hoping for over 500,000. That process takes about four hours. We're partway there! (and I haven't even taken any anxiety drugs!). God is with us! Please keep praying - we're flooding heaven with those prayers!

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Sleep Tight My Honey Badger

Hi Folks - Lew reporting here.
Yes, Megan is now under the knife, and in a happy place, feeling less pain than she has in months! We started out at 5:15 this morning with a brisk walk across the U of M campus from our newly rented apt to the hospital. It was a rather warm 26 degrees. We were commenting how good Megan felt today, while just a week ago she wasn't able to even walk to the bathroom without extreme pain. Megan said it was hope. Hope for a better future that gave her strength today.
One would think that she would be freezing when Megan changed into her hospital gown. The gowns they use here are great because they have an air hose connected to them and you can control your own climate inside the gown. Of course, Megan is the only one they admitted that uses the air conditioner and not the heater inside her gown during this time of year! (February in Minneapolis?!)


As usual, she was a hard stick to start the IV, and the Anesthesia Nurse tried poking her twice before she had to switch arms and get it in. As soon as the IV started with Versed to make her loopy, the smile came over Megan's face and she started talking about how much she likes to talk, how happy she gets, and how popular she becomes when she's on Versed. Funny!
She was wheeled into OR at 7:13 this morning. But before she went in I managed to snap a few pictures. One of them, Megan w her flag draped over her, wearing her colors: Honey Badger vs Cobra: Honey Badger Don't Care!


Dr. Dunn came in to check on Megan and asked if we had any last questions. We really didn't have anything new to ask, except that we get a snapshot of the two of them before they went it to get started.

That's it for now folks. No we just have to wait for the great surgeons to do their work. We thanked all the staff ahead of time, for their day will be a long one. Arriving at 6am and probably not leaving until after 8 tonight. Talk about a tough job!
Wish us luck and we'll keep you posted!
Lew

They've started!

from Megan's mom:
The nurse just called out from the operating room and they began about 8:10. She said all is going well.

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We've begun!

First update:
We arrived at the hospital at 5:30 a.m. Megan is in good spirits. A lovely chaplain came and prayed with us. We met all of the doctors, anesthesiologists, etc. Everything has been very organized and calm. Megan was taken to the operating room at 7:13 a.m. But the actual surgery likely won't begin for an hour or more. Dr. Dunn said they would tell us when the surgery begins, when the pancreas is out, and when they have the islets. She said it would be about two more hours once the islets have been transplanted. We're on our way back to a healthy life for Megan, Lew and the kids!

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Thursday, February 16, 2012

'Twas the night before panky...

Me taking a walk in my short sleeved tshirt


Well, here we are on the night before the cranky panky yanky. I am very ready for this to be over and done with. Of course, I have some mild nerves here, but I get much more spun up on Sunday nights when I know I have to go to work the next day!

I finished up my testing today. I'm in a study for a new medication that's supposed to help the islet cells produce more insulin. I had to do 2 days of testing. The first day, they hook me up to 2 IVs - 1 to draw blood from and the other to put stuff in. First they pushed in some glucose, and drew my blood about every minute. Then 20 minutes in, they gave me some insulin to see how well my body reacted to that. Then today I just had to drink a Boost shake and then they took my blood every half hour for 2 hours to test my blood sugars. This study is a double blind study, so I won't know if I'm getting the real drug or a placebo, but it's worth a try! Plus, they pay for my travel and lodging expenses for 2 days, including this trip! We used airline miles to get out here (bummer), but they'll reimburse my plane ticket home, plus the 2 nights we spent at the hotel. Not a bad deal since we were going to be here anyway!

I took some photos of our lovely apartment. It's really a dorm room, but not too bad at all. No granite countertops or travertine tile, but it'll do. It's nice to have gotten it, because it's a 2 br apartment w/ kitchen for less than half the cost of a single hotel room, so it's a pretty good deal!

Kitchen and "dining room"


Living room area


One of the bedrooms



I also took some photos of the hospital waiting room. It has 4 pods that have chairs, couches that fold out to be beds, and big screen TVs. They also have a little office area, and a nice big screen that updates each patient's status. Not that mine will change all that much...

One of the pods in the waiting room


The computers in the waiting room


Status screen

We have to be there at 5:30 am for a 7:00 (per admissions) or 7:30 (per the nurses) surgery time. The surgery usually takes 12-14 hours. Once they open me up, it takes about 4 hours to remove my pancreas. Then they will take it to the lab where they will harvest out the islets. This takes 4-6 hours. Then they will inject the islets into the portal vein of my liver.

Mom said she would update my blog, so check it for my status! Thank you everyone who has supported my family and me through all this. It has meant so much to us. And Cami and Kyle - if you're reading this - I love you SO much (Google infinity macaroni and cheese)!!! I will get better soon and then be back to see my babies! We will go on bike rides and walks and do all sorts of fun stuff. It might take a while, but I will get back to being my mean old mom self! Love, Mamacita :-)

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Doing it au naturale!

As usual, I lay in bed this morning, trying not to make any movements that would induce the dreaded vomitous maximus. It's usually the nausea that wakes me up, but once I lift my head to get that phenergan in me, the pain kicks in. Not usually TOO bad first thing in the morning - it just builds throughout the day. But this morning was one of the worst. It was unrelenting (one of those pains that come in waves that do not stop).  So, I lay on my bed; inhaling quietly, then softly (or maybe not!) moaned with each breath I exhaled. It really reminded me of labor pains and that staggered breathing (Hooo-hee-hee-hee-hee-hee). Recently I saw the pain scale on a Dr's office wall comparing a rating of "10" to giving birth. (Any moms with pancreatitis, join me in roaring laughter now! Believe me, it's not even close!) But then it got me thinking - maybe that IS as bad as it gets! Maybe I CAN do this. So, I'm happy to announce that instead of anesthesia and painkillers with this surgery, I'm just gonna hire a doula and pant my way through the whole thing! Maybe I can get me one of those big exercise balls to sit on too! A great idea, no?!  :-)

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

It hurts HOW much?!

Oh, one other funny thing about the pain clinic. They had a chart on the wall that explained the pain scale from 1-10. There was a note at the bottom that said: A 10 on the pain scale would be comparable to giving birth or the worst toothache you've ever had. I broke out laughing when I read that! Giving birth was like a 4 compared to pancreatitis! I told the Dr that was a total joke. I'd give birth a hundred times over rather than have this pain!  Of course, then there's the trouble of what to do with 100 babies, but I'm sure I could get a great price on the black market...  :-)

2/8 update

I went to the pain management doctor today. It was kind of odd, given that I'm leaving for MN next week, but at least I'm in their system when I get back. The doctor is kind of a hippie, with long-ish hair and a scarf wrapped around his head. He will help with my meds once I get home. He was funny though - they make you sign a waiver that you will submit to drug testing at any time. I guess though, it's not always for the presence of drugs, but for the absence. He's had some little old ladies come in for pain meds, but when they did a drug test, there were NO drugs in their systems. Apparently they were then selling their painkillers to supplement their incomes, lol! Anyway, he told me that he does not prescribe medical marijuana, but if I tested positive for that, he would let that slide, but anything else would get me kicked out of there. I think I'll be just fine on that one!

If anyone reading this is considering a TP-IAT and has United Healthcare, I found out some info about coverage and travel reimbursement. United Healthcare has reclassified the TP-IAT from a transplant procedure to a standard surgical procedure. The good news is that they now don't require all the testing and medical justification, so all the hospital has to do is notify UHC of the date you're having surgery. The downside is that travel costs aren't reimbursed because they only do that for "transplants". I couldn't get a straight answer from UHC, but fortunately the folks in UMN's financial department were able to give me the background.

Other than that, I'm chugging along. The nausea is unrelenting. My pain is moderately controlled. I always get worse as the day goes on, so I don't usually sleep too well. I have a heating pad on my belly 24/7. If I take it off at all, the pain gets insane. Last night, I actually had to pull out a 2nd heating pad to try to cover every inch of my abdomen, lol! T minus 9 days and counting! Of course I'm scared and anxious, but I am SO READY for this!!!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

February 17!!!

Minnesota had a cancellation, so they got me in for the TP-IAT on Feb 17! I've never been so excited about a surgery in my life! You know, as we were up in MN, I had asked friends and family for their prayers for an early date. Then when they gave me April 13, I got very discouraged - so much for prayer. But everyone kept praying for me, and this cancellation came through. Nobody ever cancels this surgery, so it was amazing that something opened up!

Lew and I are flying out on Tuesday, and I have some pre-op tests on Wed and Thurs, then the big surgery on Friday. Mom is going to come out on Wed and stay the entire time. Lew will stay until the next Mon or Tues so he can get back to work and be with the kiddos. We are trying to get an apartment through the hospital housing folks, but you can't reserve them ahead of time - you just have to call once you're up there and have your social worker arrange it. Hopefully we'll get one, because they're much cheaper than the going rate around there, but if they're full I'm sure something will work out.

They tell me to plan for 10-14 days in the hospital - some of that time in ICU. Then they want me to stay for up to a month there in Minneapolis so I'm close to the doctors if anything goes wrong. I'm really trying to be optimistic, but I usually have complications with surgery. With my appendix, I caught meningitis. With my gallbladder, I had a weird connection, so he had to run a bunch of extra tests to see what was going on, and I think that surgery is what set off my pancreatis. With my splenectomy, it was supposed to be laparoscopic but he had to slice my entire abdomen open because I was bleeding so much. And then I got an infection in the hospital where I had a 106 fever and then basically died - they had to call a code blue to revive me. So, I truly hope things go smoothly but I'm preparing my mind to expect something to go wrong. Then I'll be pleased when everything goes great. I AM going to the experts now and not those honky-tonk witch doctors who did my previous surgeries! Keep up those prayers, folks! Oh, and while I'm thinking of it - the ICU does not allow any plants or flowers, so don't waste any of your money there! I would love to get emails from folks, though. Mom and Lew can read them to me when I'm conscious (which hopefully will be not at all for the first few days!), then once I'm feeling better I'll be able to respond. :-)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Happy Birthday, Mama!

Hope it's been a good one. Thank you for everything you've done for me, from birth till now. You are badass, just like the honey badger!!! :-)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Power to the purple!

There's nothing like purple hair to show your support for pancreas research! Since I won't be working for almost another year (probably), I can go a little crazy with the 'do and I'm lovin it!! ;-)

Friday, February 3, 2012

April 13

Well, MN gave me a date of April 13. 10 weeks away. It's pretty disheartening. I know, I know, it IS a date. But I've been home on disability for 10 weeks now and I just can't imagine doing it twice over. So, we're waiting to see what Tucson says they can do. They might even be able to give me a Feb date. It's just more wait and see...

I'm really struggling with what to do now. I listed out the pros and cons for each center, not that they're all weighted equally, of course.

MN Pros
- lots of experience; they've been doing this procedure since the 1970s so they know what tubes to put in to control nausea, pain, nutrition, etc and how and when to start pushing you to walk, eat, or rest
- Dr. Dunn is meticulous and has an incredible eye for detail
- world class lab where islets are harvested
- hospitalization will likely be better (they know how to take care of sick people)
- pain control; I've heard people say they had NO pain after surgery in MN. AZ tells us to expect the worst pain in my entire life for the first 2 days. (Of course there's no promise of either of those happening with me at either place)
- UMN is willing to try to fix the nerve damage along my scar from my splenectomy; UMC wants me to come back for another surgery after the TP-IAT

MN Cons
- 10 week wait time
- my support network is in AZ
- my babies are in AZ
- logistics of traveling, finding a hotel/apartment, and who will stay with me when
- travel costs
- follow-up care; yes, I would plan to go there for 3 month, 6 month, and 12 month follow-ups, but who do I see if I have complications?

AZ Pros
- Rilo and Gruessner seem very experienced. Each place claims to have more experience than the other, so I don't know, but they're clearly passionate about their work.
- Earlier surgery date?
- my support network is here
- easier follow-up care for routine and emergency issues
- no hotel or travel costs

AZ Cons
- new facility; there may be glitches they haven't worked out yet
- drs have less experience doing TP-IATs (at least in this facility)
- not willing to mess with my splenic scar
- quality of care; I have not had any good experiences at UMC. With the TP-IAT I would be on the transplant floor with nurses familiar with patients' pain after this procedure, so the care might be better, but who knows...
- responsiveness; it's hard to get anything done or even a call back, and wait times for appts can be close to a year (at least with my last GI). If I DO hae any complications, will I be able to get an appt?

So, as you can see, it's a tough call. If Dr. Sutherland was still at UMN, I think the decision would be easier. Now that he's gone, I can't say that one team has more experience than another. There's a big difference in how MN treats medical patients vs AZ, though I've not had any experience on the transplant floor. Louise from MN assured us that Tucson is a good facility and we will be well taken care of there, if that's where we choose to go. I'm so torn right now. I would REALLY love to hear your thoughts and advice on this. I know everyone will support whatever I choose to do, and I am so grateful for everything you have done already. There are no wrong answers here and I would love to hear what you would do and why. Please help me make this life-changing decision!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Wednesday update from MN

Well, we had some good evaluations today. First was my MRI. This got started late, of course, because they couldn't start a stinkin IV. After the vascular team got there and got the IV started, they started the MRI. In the middle, they gave me secretin which stimulates the pancreas and they can see how it functions on the MRI. My pancreas does not like to be stimulated, so I felt pretty yucky after that. They did have to re-record some of the sequences because you're supposed to steadily breathe through the frames, but I kept falling asleep and would actually stop breathing in the middle! It just never ends...

Then we met with Dr. Freeman, the man who first diagnosed all my pancreatic issues. He was a bit concerned that the diagnostic tests (like the EUS) didn't really show much damage, so he didn't have much clear cut evidence that the TP-IAT would help me. However, the excellent results I got from the ERCP pointed toward the pancreas definitely causing my pain. We talked about the years of experience that MN had, and how that would definitely factor into my choice of where to have the surgery.

So, now we have a major decision on our hands - where do we do the cranky panky yanky? AZ is more convenient, for sure. And they have a good lab for isolating those islets. But, MN's facility is world class - it doesn't get any better than them. MN has also done many more surgeries than AZ, so have a good grasp on how to manage pain, as well as how to help the body heal. These centers learn by trial and error, and MN is further down that path. Of course, there are added expenses with MN - even after I'm discharged from the hospital, we would need to stay in MN for a few more weeks until the drs felt comfortable with me travelling. We'll just have to see how the dates work out. Dr. Freeman said that they evaluate 3-5 cases every week, but only perform one TP-IAT per week, so I have to imagine that there's a big backlog. Louise is going to call me tomorrow to discuss next steps. It may just come down to when they can get me in. The experience and attention to detail is just phenomenal in MN, and Dr. Dunn is clearly a perfectionist and would do an impeccable job on my scar and all of the reattachments. I think the Tucson team would also do a great job and I would feel totally comfortable having it done there. But for me, it comes down to the experience and the quality of care you find in MN that is just not there in AZ. Insurance coverage can also be a deciding factor. I guess we will see - hopefully I will find out more tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Tuesday update

We had a pretty busy day today. First I had to get some fasting blood work done. Then they gave me a Boost shake and drew blood after 1 hour and 2 hours. No surprise that they had a hell of a time getting a vein for the first draw. The male nurse got really bitchy with me, slamming things around like I had deliberately shrunken my veins just to piss him off. So in between the first and second blood draws, they sent me next door to the hospital to get an IV port put in so they didn't have to search for a vein every time. I have an MRI with contrast tomorrow too, so I could keep it in for that. BUT, by the time I got back over to the clinic building, that vein had blown so they couldn't even use it. Aargh! Really frustrating! They did manage to dig around and find a vein for the last 2 blood draws though. The nurses were pretty funny there - they all loved my diamond ring and asked to try it on, then were prancing around flashing my ring at people saying, "I said YES!" Such dorks!

The weather today was just beautiful. I think it was only supposed to get up to 40 degrees, but I was out walking around with a short sleeve tshirt. It was nice and cool and crisp. It felt so good, I was even up for a walk to the drugstore. Amazing, since I usually can't even walk to the mailbox at home. It felt good.

For our first appt, we met with the social worker. I don't think we really learned anything new from her. If I have the surgery here, we should plan to stay for about a month.

Then this afternoon, we met with Dr. Dunn. Before she came in, Louise (the transplant coordinator) stopped by and introduced herself. She pulled up my blood work and said that everything looked basically normal. My blood glucose looked good too, which is an indication that my islets work well. Then Dr. Dunn came in. She explained the procedure and drew out this incredible diagram of how the pancreas connects to all the other organs and veins in the abdomen. I will definitely have to scan it in when we get home, because she did an amazing job. She told us about this little tube that they put in your abdomen (about half the diameter of a coffee stirrer) that has tiny holes all along the tubing that drips lidocaine for several days. I had this with my shoulder surgery and it worked really well. The TP-IAT is a bit more extensive, but I'll take whatever I can get! I'm not sure if this is the exact thing, but here's something similar: http://www.iflo.com/prod_onq_classic.php I told a friend in one of my Facebook support groups about this and she just called the PA in Tucson to ask about it. He said that they could do those, but they only really work when you have a vertical incision vs the horizontal that they prefer for the surgery. BUT, I already have a vertical scar that they will reuse, thanks to my organ Russian Roulette. (I wish I had a nickel for every time a doctor has asked me, "Now WHY did they take your spleen out?") Yay! That makes me feel so much better! And I also love that I can post something on Facebook and in less than an hour, get a phone call from someone who just talked to my AZ doctors and got answers to all my questions. How did we ever survive before Al Gore invented the internet? Amazing!

Monday, January 30, 2012

EUS is over!

My EUS went pretty routinely, I suppose. They had a hell of a time starting an IV, no surprise. One thing that was really cool was that the hospital gowns were these 2-layer paper gowns. The inner layer had a whole bunch of little holes, like an air hockey table. Then there's a hose you can connect to the gown that will blow warm or cool air all around the inside. I, of course, had it on the coldest setting available. I asked the nurse if she's ever seen anyone blast cold air when it was 25 degrees outside, lol! It was really cool though, no pun intended! (I also made Lew leave the window open all night last night. The lengths that he will go for me...

Anyway, the Dr did an EUS, and made sure to look for the stent. (He did not find one.) Then he did the pancreatic function tests. I guess both tests looked normal. I'm not sure what that all means. If, by their standards, I do not have chronic pancreatitis, does that mean they would not recommend surgery? I certainly don't want to do this if it doesn't help my pain. But I know I'm in a lot of pain, so what's causing it? I guess the best case would be that it is my pancreas causing the pain, but the pancreas itself is not very damaged. Then we could get a maximum amount of islet cells when they do the TP-IAT. I guess we'll see what they say...

Tomorrow I have a bunch of blood work (8:45 am) and Boost testing (where they measure my blood glucose) at 9:00, 10:00 and 11:00. We're meeting the social worker at 10 am too, just to make sure I have a support system in place after surgery. And then we're meeting Dr. Dunn, the transplant surgeon, at 1:30 pm.

Well, that's all for now. I'll post again tomorrow if anything exciting happens...

1st Day in MN

Well, here we are in MN. The photo was taken from the plane. Btw, what IS all that cold, white stuff? ;-) We got settled into the hotel OK. We had to catch the light rail from the airport to the Metrodome - there were slight flashbacks of trying to find the train in Naples, lol! The University Hotel is situated nicely, right in the center of the campus, so there are lots of good restaurants all around. (Good for Lew, I guess!) We were lucky enough to come during a "warm streak" - it's supposed to get up to 40 today! The newscasters even told people they could leave their jackets off, ha!

Today I have my EUS with PFTs (Endoscopic Ultrasound with Pancreatic Function Tests). There was some confusion about the time. Last night I realized that I had 2 sheets of paper with different times - one was arrival at 7:30 am for a 9:00 am procedure, the other said arrive at 9 am for an 11 am procedure. Of course, I realized this around 7 pm last night (Sunday) so there was nobody around to call and verify the time. I left some frantic messages, hoping someone would call me back in time. Laura did call about 6:15 this morning to say she couldn't find me on the schedule at all! But she called around to a bunch of people and found out my procedure IS scheduled for 11 am. So now we're just hanging out at the hotel until 8:45 when the shuttle will take us over to the hospital, even though it's only 2 blocks away and a balmy 25 degrees out. I'm making Lew watch A Baby Story on TLC. He must love me so much! :-)

I'm a bit nervous about this test. Fortunately it's under general anesthesia, which I do much better on than sedation. But anytime I see that propofol, I get a little freaked out! What makes me nervous for this test is that they use secretin to stimulate my pancreas and then take samples of the pancreatic juices over about 2 hours time. Anytime my pancreas is stimulated, I end up in a lot of pain. It shouldn't cause a full blown attack, though, and I'll have an IV so they can give me pain meds if I need them. And I always end up vomiting too. Uck. I'll post again tonight with updates from how the day went!

MRI

I had my MRI on Saturday. It went ok, I guess. Of course, they had a horrid time getting an IV started, but managed to get one in my left hand with an itty bitty needle. They did the first part of the MRI without contrast - no problems. When the contrast part started, I felt this big gush of liquid pouring down my hand. I pumped the little "emergency bulb" to tell them that my IV blew and the contrast was pouring all over my hand. Right when I did that was when they needed to get the images of the contrast first going in, but beause I was talking, those images didn't turn out well. The tech told me that everything else looked good, so hopefully I won't need to re-do that test AGAIN. Once the test was done, the tech came over to remove my IV and that's when I learned that they did get the contrast IN, but then my vein blew so all the fluid gushing down my hand was blood. Nice. I swear, I am not going to have any blood left!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Gastric emptying

Well, I had my gastric emptying study on Thursday. They had me eat some oatmeal that had a radioactive tracer mixed into it, plus 2 slices of toast with butter and jelly. Let me tell you - I thought I was in big time trouble, but I managed to keep it down.  I have been able to eat oatmeal at home, so I was hoping that the oatmeal here was ok, and it was.  My biggest problem was getting it all IN me. A bowl of oatmeal plus 2 slices of toast is a LOT for me to have to eat! Anyway, once I ate I had to lie on a table where they took a video for 1 minute, then I had to wait (in the waiting room) until 1 hr, 1.5 hrs, 3 hours and 4 hours.  At the beginning, the tech thought that my doctor wanted them to take continuous video for the whole first hour, with no magazines or videos or anything to help the time go by.  So, I took some ativan to relax and maybe take a little nap.  Then the tech found out that they needed only 1 minute at the beginning and 1 minute after an hour.  So he sent me back to the waiting room where I totally passed out.  :-) Then when he came to get me for the 1 hour video, he told me I could just lay there and snooze for the next half hour until the 1.5 hour mark. So, that was me...crashed out on the steel xray bed...but he got me a nice warm blanket and all was good! After that I had 1.5 hrs to kill so I went upstairs to get copies of my bloodwork from yesterday. I asked the lady if she knew of a nice quiet waiting room around somewhere (because the hospital was jam packed with the entire population of Tucson). She told me about a nice doctor's lounge over in the med school building that was just fabulous - great comfy chairs, some study stations and even a coffee shop.  SO much better than children climbing on walls! :-) When I went back for the 3 hr shots, the tech told me that everything had already passed through, so I was done and didn't need to have the 4 hr shot taken - yay! I have no idea how that happened, since we knew already that I have a very slow digestion time, plus narcotics really slow you down, but I'll take it!

From my bloodwork, it looks like there are several things that came back abnormal that indicate infection, dehydration and internal inflammation.  I still really think that the evil stent is still somewhere in my body.  I swear, I can feel it as it's moving around. I just wish it didn't hurt so much! I have my MRI on Saturday, so that should show it.  If not, there's always the EUS next Monday or the MRCP next Wed.

Here are 2 photos from the waiting area for nuclear medicine. What cracks me up is them telling us to chill-ax in one sign, then 2 feet away there's radiation all around you. UMC seems to be brilliant with their signs warning stupid people! I may have to make a montage  - like a photo diary - of all the "special" things and people I encounter along the way!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Appt with Dr. Gruessner

So, we saw Dr. Gruessner and his PA Rob today. Dr. G doesn't have quite the bedside manner as Dr. Rilo, but he definitely knows his stuff. Both Gruessner and Rob are from UMN where they worked with Dr. Sutherland, the pioneer of the TP-IAT. It was like Lew and I were on an interview panel where we had all of our notes, taking turns to ask them questions. It was pretty funny! The appointment was mostly just us asking our questions, so I'll just fill in the blanks on the questions I had already typed and printed.

What is life expectancy after TP-IAT? Same as anyone else.

Do islets "burn out" after a few years in the liver? If so, does it help to stay on some insulin just so they don't have to work so hard? No, they don't burn out. You are kept on insulin for the first 6 months or so, so the islets aren't too overworked, but after 6 months you're probably pretty close to how you will end up.

Is the biliary duct removed in the pancreatectomy? (I've heard some folks say that they still have SOD after the TP-IAT.) Yes, the biliary duct is cut out. You cannot get SOD after you have the TP-IAT.

How many TP-IATs have you performed? They do 20-40 a year here in Tucson. Dr. G has done hundreds.

How does my lack of a spleen and gall bladder effect the surgery/recovery? It has no impact.

Does my divisum make anything with my surgery different/difficult? No

Side effects - what are the most common side effects short term/long term? How common are intestinal blockages? Less than 10% of people have complications after surgery. Obviously, diabetes can occur. You have a 50% chance of being diabetic long term.

What does the surgical scar look like? Can you use my existing incision? Can you look for hernias/weak spots in my abdominal wall? Yes, they will use my existing scar - about 2/3rds of it. Usually they go across the belly but he won't make me look like a patchwork quilt. He does not want to mess with repairing any of my existing nerve damage around my current scar yet because it's possible that I could have the same issues after this surgery. Once they get me all fixed up, then they'll evaluate if more needs to be done and only do it once.

Will/can I be given an epidural during surgery? I have heard it helps with pain when I wake up. It's a possibility, depending on how much blood thinners that they use on me during surgery. If they use lots, there is an increased risk of bleeding which they want to avoid.

After surgery, will I have an NG or JG tube? NG. This is a tube that goes in through your nose, down your throat, through your stomach and into the intestines. It's used to drain any bile that leaks through one of the new connections they make. It is also used for feeding during the first few days. It stays in until I can eat on my own and have a bm so we know the guts are working right.

What % of patients have ghost pains after surgery? How long do they last? About 25% of patients have ghost pains for several weeks after the surgery. Long term (6-12 months) after the surgery, about 30% have no pain at all; 35% have some, but greatly reduced, pain; 25% have significant pain. One thing he's noticed is that those who are employed and enjoy their jobs have a much better result. Hmmm...employed AND like my job? That may be stretching it a bit...

Some other things mentioned:

Because this surgery is basically gastric bypass on surgery, I will lose 15-25 lbs in the first 6 months after surgery. (Thank god!)

This surgery has a very long and hard recovery. It will take between 6-12 months before I start to feel human again. They are basically gutting me and then re-attaching every organ in a new way.

The first 2 days after surgery, I will be in excrutiating pain. No amount of painkillers will take the pain away. But, if you can get through those first 2 days, the 3rd day will be much much better. (I asked him what happens if you CAN'T get through those first 2 days...) He really wanted to emphasize that the pain is very significant and wanted us to be aware of that. Yuck.

Rob was talking about one lady they operated on was taking 4500 mg of morphine a day. Yes, four thousand five hundred! (And my Dr had a hiss fit when I was taking 90 mg a day...) After the TP-IAT, she got down to 1000 mg/day. I have no idea what she's doing now.

So, I think that's about it. They do the surgery on Thursdays. If the insurance approval goes well, they still have some open spots in Feb. But, there are several people going through testing right now, so it's a matter of who wins the insurance race. I'm just going to count on March so I won't be disappointed. Then anything earlier will be a bonus!

Oh, one last thing! Check out this photo - I had some blood work today and they filled up every vial on that tray, plus 10 more that didn't fit on the tray. Yes...28 vials! Plus a scoop o' poop. This disease is so glamorous...

No rapelling in the hospital!

For some reason, this sign cracks me up. It's on a wall (shocker!) in the hospital. I'm thinking this sign was installed to solve a particular problem. My guess is that the audience for which this sign is intended probably can't read it anyway. And how sad that a parent would need a sign in order to keep their kids from climbing walls! "I'm sorry little Timmy, but it's not MY rule. I would have let you climb the walls. Stupid sign..."

I'm waiting for my appt with Dr. Gruessner. I'll update my blog later with the news...

Monday, January 23, 2012

Testing Frenzy

Well, it looks like the floodgates are opening. Of course, this is all pre-op stuff, but it has to be done before anyone will even schedule surgery. Then it's about 4-6 weeks for the big one! The acronyms referenced below are UMC (University Medical Center - Tucson) and UMN (University of Minnesota - Minneapolis). Here's the plan as I know it right now:

1/23 - physical w/ PCP in Tucson
1/25 - blood tests and appt w/ Dr. Gruessner @ UMC (the surgeon who will be doing the yanky of the cranky panky)
1/26 - Gastric Emptying Study @ UMC (to see how quickly food moves through my body, or out of it in my case. I have to eat a radioactive meal and then they take images periodically to see how everything's moving. This is a four hour test - good thing I have lots of magazines!)
1/28 - MRI @ UMC using Dr. Rilo's special algorithms (looking at my pancreas for damage, and my liver to make sure it's in good enough condition to house my islets once they're removed from the panky, and also to look for that stinkin' stent!)
1/29 - Lew and I fly to MN
1/30 - EUS w/ PFTs @ UMN (see previous post for details)
1/31 - blood work, Boost testing, meet with UMN social worker and Dr. Dunn (transplant surgeon)
2/1 - MRCP and appt w/ Dr. Freeman (general surgeon) @ UMN
2/2 - fly back to Tucson
2/8 - appt w/ pain management in Tucson

So, there you have it. Heck, I almost don't have time to be sick. Let the prodding begin!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Here's my new pancreas! And this one is happy - probably because it's already outside my body! :-)

Hello everyone - sorry it's been so long since my last update. Everything moves so slowly with this disease. I think it was Fri, Jan 6 when I went in to have my stent pulled. But when Dr. C went to pull it, it was already gone. Now, we assumed that means that it passed on its own, down through my intestines and out. But, we don't REALLY know for sure because nobody has seen it with their own eyes. Last Tuesday, I ended up in the ER because my pain had gotten so much worse, and it was different from my "normal" pancreas pain, and I was running a low fever. Lew was on travel, so I had my mom come down for a few days and she got to be the lucky one to take me. I think it was 3 hours for them to get me back there and get an IV started. It felt like forever, though the nurse told us the average wait time was 6-8 hours just to get past triage. Just ridiculous. So, they wanted to take another xray to see if the stent was lodged in there somewhere and that's what was causing so much pain. They finally managed to start an IV (never easy for me) and gave me a sadly weak dose of pain meds. They gave me a pill for nausea, which I had at home anyway. I mentioned to the Dr on call that I just wanted to get some fluids in me and see if the meds helped. She says, "Oh, I didn't order any fluids for you, but I guess I can. Do you want IV fluids?" Seriously? What Dr would start an IV on someone who's been vomiting, but doesn't order IV fluids?! I really don't know how people are still alive with this shoddy medicine! Anyway, long story short - they didn't see the stent so sent me home that night. I think we got home around 1:30 am.

The next day, I was so so sick. Sicker than I've ever been, I think. I think it may have been just a bug, but it knocked me down hard. Thank god my mom was there to watch the kids and to make some homemade ginger tea to help with the nausea and vomiting. I was so sick that I had to keep a trash can next to the bed because I could barely lift my head. Since then, I've been much better. I'm still extremely nauseous but am doing better with the pain. I have a patch that slowly releases medication for 3 days - my Dr increased the dosage on that and I think it's gone a long way toward controlling my pain without a whole lot of breakthrough pain meds, so that's a very good thing! It's still a LOT of narcotics...hopefully that goes away once I have the TP!

I have an appt with a pain management Dr on Feb 8. They're not planning to change anything I'm currently on, but will manage everything so there's one single Dr who looks at it all. Dr. Rilo said that it takes about a year to get off all the pain meds. I guess it's a combo of post-op pain and "phantom pains" that takes so long. Scary. OK, back to upcoming appts - I also have an MRI scheduled for next Sat 1/28 - that's part of my pre-op testing required for UMC. Then Lew and I leave on Sun for MN. I am scheduled for an EUS on Monday 1/30. They are also doing Pancreatic Function Tests (PFTs) at the same time. This is where they stimulate my pancreas with secretin and then take fluid and tissue samples over a period of about 2 hours. I'm guessing I'll be pretty miserable at the end of that day. Then on Tues they're doing blood work and Boost Testing, where they have me drink a Boost (like an Ensure shake) and then draw my blood every 15 min to look at how my blood glucose reacts. This will indicate how good my islets are functioning right now. I'm also meeting with the Transplant Social Worker and the Transplant Surgeon that day. On Wed 2/1 I have an MRI, then meet with Dr. Freeman, who is the GI/General Surgeon. He's the guy who saved my life in 2008, so he's near and dear to my heart!

That's all I know for now. I think UMC is trying to get me in for some tests next week, but I don't know if they'll be able to. I still need an upper endoscopy and some blood tests here in Tucson, plus meet the Transplant Surgeon, his PA and the social worker. Lots of people to meet and tests to do! I'm really hoping I can get this surgery done and over with by March, but am not getting my hopes up. Actually, the beginning of March would be good because we have a ski trip to Telluride scheduled at the end of Feb. Obviously, I will not be doing any skiing this season :-( but I hope that the rest of the family can still go. It's SUCH a fun trip and I don't want to ruin it for the rest of the fam. I am kinda bummed that I won't get to ski this year. Last year I was starting to get a bit better and taking jumps and steeper slopes, just tearing down the hill as fast as I can. I got a cool new helmet with headphones integrated in, so I could jam to my tunes feeling the crisp, cool air on my face. Oh well, there's always next year!

One last thing - I'm not sure if any of my coworkers read this blog, but I wanted to thank you all for the really nice cards that you sent me. They mean so much to see all those kind words from everyone. I was feeling a bit down before I left work - like I wasn't really making the impact I'd hoped to in my job. And now that I'm gone, everybody else's lives just go on as usual. To see all of the people who signed the cards and wrote such kind words, it really just means so much to me. Maybe I did make a difference to some people, yk? It's just hard on the old ego when you're sick and really have no value to anyone. But I know I'll get back to normal soon enough, and just long for the days when I could lay in bed all day and not have to work, lol! :-)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Status update

So, how am I doing, you ask? Well, it's a whole lotta ups and downs. If I look at the whole picture, I don't think the ERCP did me any good. There were a couple days last week where I felt relatively good, but that only happens when I lie in bed all day. If I get up to do anything (like go to the Dr's office), then I'm down for the next day or two. The horrible nausea is the worst, and it's a constant juggling act. Eating gives me pain and nausea, but an empty stomach feels almost worse. So I have to try to keep a little bit in me. I usually try to time eating for right after I've taken my nausea medicine. I'm going to call my Dr's office in the morning to see if they'll call in some phenergan suppositories. Not glamorous, I know, but at least I won't be throwing up the medicine that way. Food smells always make me so nauseous, so Lew has to close the bedroom door and open the door to the outside whenever he cooks anything. I'm so done with feeling like this! I actually had a dream last night that I went to a regular Dr's appt and they told me that they had an opening right then for the TP-IAT, so they wheeled me back to the OR. You know it's bad when you're actually eagerly awaiting a transplant surgery!

As far as progress, there's not a whole lot, but there is some. Renee from UMC said she will call me on Monday to discuss the whole process of testing and insurance approvals. Please pray that my approval comes through quickly, and it's for the whole thing. Some insurance providers will pay for the pancreatectomy but not for the islet transplant. It really makes no sense to me, as without the transplant you have a 100% chance of becoming diabetic, which is VERY expensive to the insurance companies. Not sure what their logic is there...I guess some of them view it as "experimental". Anyway, I need to have an EGD, which is an upper endoscopy. No cutting, and I hear it's a breeze. There they will look at my stomach and other organs to make sure there's not something going on there. I need another MRI, using Dr. Rilo's new algorithms to view the pancreas and liver to make sure the liver is healthy enough to house the islets. And I'm sure there will be lots and lots of blood tests. I did finish up with the 5 day glucose monitoring. The gadget on my side measured my blood glucose every 5 minutes, so now I have to send it back and the Dr will download the data. I also had to take my blood sugars 4x a day. Those should ideally be somewhere between 80-120. I had one low of 56 and one high if 122, but otherwise everything was pretty stable which is a good indication that my islets are working well. I had asked about tube feeds at my last appt to try to avoid the pain that comes with eating. Dr. Rilo didn't want to do TPN (total parenteral nutrition, which goes in via IV) because it can damage the liver. They could possibly insert a tube that they put in past your duodenum so that your pancreas isn't stimulated, but Dr. Rilo said he would rather just accelerate the surgery. I just hope that he can - soon! I also need to meet with Dr. Gruessner in one of his Wed clinics, but I'm not sure if it will be this coming Wed. He is the chief of surgery and will be the one actually removing my pancreas. Dr. Rilo will then take it to the lab to harvest the islets. This is a 4-5 hour process, so in the meantime, Dr. Gruessner will be doing my gastric bypass :-) and then just hang out doing a tap dance or something until my islets are ready. Maybe I should buy him that game Operation to keep him busy! So, hopefully I'll know something more tomorrow, but it's probably not likely. I haven't felt very good today - praying for a better tomorrow. Since my ERCP, I have the same left sided pressure like someone is blowing up a balloon inside of me. But now I also have right sided pain like someone stabbed me through the ribcage with a serrated knife and is sawing away at my insides. Fun. I never had that before, so I don't know why it has popped up now. I think Dr. C cut my biliary duct deeper than anyone has before, so maybe that's it.

Well, that's enough whining for one day. I promise to keep everyone posted as soon as I know anything different. Thanks for hangin in there with me!

Maintaining medical records

Ok class, today's lesson will be on medical records. The photo above is my working file that I always carry with me. It's hard to tell, but the accordion folder is 5 inches thick. I measured.

Being ill is a full-time job. It's not all about lying in bed eating bon-bons (though I must admit it's mostly about lying in bed eating morphine...) But in order to be successful, you must be well organized. Whoever knows me knows this is not a strength of mine, or even a word in my vocabulary. But these days, it can become a matter of life and death. Doctors won't even think about scheduling appointments until they have all of your records, but in this day of specialists, that can mean collecting records from 4, 5, or even 10 different doctors. (Right now I'm being seen by my PCP, her NP, 3 GIs, 2 surgeons, a PA, a Med student, my endocrinologist, a pain specialist and a dietician; plus a neurologist, dermatologist and gyn that aren't necessarily related to my pancreatitis...oh, and a partridge in a pear tree!) It is the patient's responsibility to make sure that all these doctors have all the data they need and are talking to each other, which never happens. All of this is left to a critically ill patient who often lacks the physical and mental faculties, with no good way to collect and share any of it. It truly is amazing in this age of technology that there is no good system in place. We can gather intelligence from hostile countries and shoot down missiles in outer space, but my doctor can't tell you what my lipase was when I was in the hospital 2 weeks ago.

Thanks to a little coaching from my fabulous caretaker Lewy, I have a system set up that works pretty well. But, it's a constant job of maintaining it all, even when you don't think it's "pancreas" related. So, what do I do? First, I had to get copies of all of my records from every doctor and hospital I've been to. Here's one hint if you're applying for disability - request a copy of your file from them. When you first apply, you give the disability company (in my case, Metlife) an authorization to release medical records, so they will contact all of your doctors and hospitals whose name you gave. If you're not going through all that, you will need to get your records from each place individually. They will most likely charge you - probably 50 cents a page, but it's one investment that is well worth the cost. It can save you weeks of time if you're trying to get in with a new doctor. Once I had all that, I sorted my records into 8 categories: Diagnostic Tests (like reports from CT scans and MRIs), Blood Tests, Surgical Notes, Inpatient Hospital Notes, Mayo Clinic Notes (most won't need this category, but I separated them out because they were chock full of incorrect or missing data that I don't want confusing my other doctors), Office Visit Notes, Correspondence, and Other. Some people may choose to just keep everything in chronological order, or by entity (like hospital or doctor). This is what works for me - the 8 different folders, with the documents arranged chronologically within each one. I also scanned every page and keep a pdf copy of everything. I also recommend making a couple of CDs/DVDs to carry with you that you can just hand to your doctor. This, of course, all sounds totally backwards. The doctor/hospital opens your electronic file and prints it out for you. The new doctor doesn't have the same software, so has you FAX them a copy of your records. They then scan those paper copies into their systems. Then they re-print and fax everything to any other doctors who want your information. The amount of paper is just incredible. I bet there are a dozen fewer rainforests in this world just from my medical records! But don't forget the non-paper records too. These can be anything from xray films to MRI images. I have found that it is much easier to just request these at the same time you have the procedure. Sometimes they can hand it to you right away, other times they have to mail it. And I always request 2 copies so I have a spare one to hand over to a doctor at any time. I keep spreadsheets listing the time I take each of my meds (good for knowing when you can take the next dose of pain meds), what I eat, my pain and nausea levels, and also my blood sugar. I'm hoping this will help me figure out what all of my triggers are. So far, the only thing I know is that food is bad - it is my enemy! And recently I've started logging any activity I've had that day. If I do venture out (which is almost exclusively for Dr appts these days), I am typically down for the next 2-3 days. I can make small trips like to the bank or the drugstore as long as I do it before 10 am. After that, I get extreme pain that's hard to get back under control. I also have a small notebook that I keep next to my bed where I can write down questions whenever they strike. My memory capacity is about 2 minutes, so there's no way I'll remember any of it once I actually get to a doctor's office. I also log any phone calls listing the date, time, person I spoke with, and a summary of the conversation. This has been most useful to me when appealing my denied disability claim. Another thing I do is type up a summary sheet, like a cover letter on a resume. It lists all my contact info, a bulletized list of each major procedure/test that includes the date, the doctor and the location, and a list of my current medications and allergies. New doctors love it when I hand this to them. It saves a lot of time and they can ask direct questions about something rather than going through your entire history every time. For people with a chronic illness like myself, telling the whole story can take up a significant portion of your appointment time. Another tip for seeing a new doc is to try to schedule the last appointment of the day. This way, the doctor is able to spend more time with you without worrying about keeping the next patient waiting. The good ones have spent up to 3-4 hours with me. My only other tip is to make good friends with the front office staff. They are the gatekeepers of the coveted appointment book and they can also put your message at the top of the pile if they want to. I've found chocolate works well. ;-) Seriously, bring in a small box of chocolate and a thank you note every once in a while, and they will bend over backwards to help you. And you need all the help you can get!

So...there's my system. What have others done that they find helpful? I would love to hear your comments! I  know it's a huge time investment up front, but the maintenance isn't too bad. It only takes me a few extra seconds each time I log food/pain/meds during the day. To me, it's worth it. As I said, being chronically ill is a full-time job and I think doctors take me a little more seriously when I come in well prepared. But, of course, I can't do it all alone. I get incredible support from my friends and family. My kids are very helpful and seem much more willing to do chores nowadays. They also keep their petty bickering to a minimum, or at least in another room. That's certainly one benefit to being ill! Friends and family help out by driving kids to activities, making meals for the family, and bringing me gossip mags and chocolate. :-) And Lewy...he just does it all...cooking, laundry, running the dad taxi, and taking care of me, all while juggling the massive amount of work required to "make sure the flame shoots out the right end". So, thank you my dear, for everything that you do. Words cannot express my gratitude and love for you. Marilyn - you done good! :-)

Well, this post has grown gi-normous, so I'll publish it and update my status in a new entry. TTFN!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Great article

This is a good article about the TP-IAT (Total Pancreatectomy with Islet Auto Transplant). I recommend downloading and saving it. I refer back to it very frequently, and I seem to learn something new every time I read it. It's long (25 pages), but good for quick references. It is written by the team up in MN.

www.top5plus5.com/Procedures_files/SCNA.pdf

So, during a TP-IAT, they remove your pancreas, spleen, gall bladder, part of your stomach and duodenum (the first part of your intestines). The spleen is taken because it is very vascular and can cause massive bleeding - man, I know all about that! When a different surgeon removed my spleen in 2007, it was supposed to be just a laparoscopic surgery but I started bleeding so they had to zipper my abdomen wide open in order to stop the bleeding. They stopped it eventually, but I needed 9 units of blood and have a giant scar down my belly now. The spleen is also a source of blood supply to the pancreas, which they want to maintain until they're ready to harvest those islets from the pancreas. The gall bladder is removed because it can cause complications during or after surgery, so they just take it out then. But why the stomach and intestines? It ends up that other studies on bariatric surgery show that when the procedure is done a certain way, patients' diabetes improved after surgery. So now they perform the same procedure on TP patients to reduce the amount of islets needed to obtain insulin independence. (This is on pg 1484 in the "Metabolic considerations" section.) So, there you have it - when they yank my cranky panky, I get a gastric bypass thrown in for free! (Well, probably not FREE, or anything close to it...) And that, my friends, is the REST of the story...

As for me, not doing so hot after the stent removal. Just going to the Dr makes me so sick for the rest of the day. I just can't get out of bed these days or my pain goes through the roof. I am eagerly awaiting my testing to begin, so I can move forward.

For you attorney-types out there, interpret this for me. It's from the disability paperwork that they want me to sign, but it clearly isn't rocket science because I have NO idea what it means!

"I expressly waive presentment, demand, notice and protest, and also waive any delay on the part of the holder hereof. I assent to any extension or other indulgence permitted me by the Trust with respect to this Note and/or any other liability."

Say what?

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Oh, and Dr. Rilo was joking yesterday that all those other surgeons made his job easy. Usually in a TP-IAT, they remove the pancreas, gall bladder, spleen and sometimes the appendix. Since I've only got my pacreas left of all of those, it should be a breeze for him. Maybe I'll get him to throw in some free lipo while he's sitting around waiting for those islets to be harvested! :-)

Some progress

Yesterday I had an appt with Dr. Khan, who is the GI associated with the Pancreatic Center at UMC in Tucson.  (Click HERE for a link to the center's website.) To our surprise (Lew and my mom went with me), Dr. Rilo also came in.  Dr. Rilo is the transplant surgeon who would perform the TP-IAT (Total Pancreatectomy with Islet Auto Transplant). You can read the details of the surgery if you click on the "Islet Cell Transplant" on the website.  Basically, they would remove my pancreas, then they separate out the islet cells (which are the cells that produce insulin) and inject the islets back into my liver, where they will live and hopefully start producing insulin from my liver so I won't be diabetic, or at least less extreme. Anyway, the appointment was really fantastic.  Brianna, one of the med students, set me up with a CGM (Continuous Glucose Monitor), which is like a little button on my side that records my blood sugar every 5 minutes.  She "installed" by injecting a small needle with a catheter into my side, then pulled the needle out, so kind of like a little IV.  It will record data for 5 days.  After 5 days, I send it back to them and they can download all the data to a computer.  This lets Dr. Rilo know how my blood sugars fluctuate throughout the day so he can get a better look at how my islets are working right now.  (The more islets they can harvest, the better, but there's really no way to know how many islets they can harvest until the surgery, but they can get a better idea of how my islets act by monitoring my blood sugars now.) I also have to test my blood sugar 4 times a day with one of those handheld meters like diabetics use.  I will send the meter back to them at the end of the 5 days, too.  Here is a photo of the CGM - ignore the buddha belly...Lew told me to suck in my gut when he took the picture, but I WAS sucking in my gut, sigh...
After Brianna left, Drs. Khan and Rilo spent 2-3 hours with us. Of course the medical discussion was great, but best of all was to hear them say that I'm not just a crazy, drug-addicted hypochondriac! It felt like they really KNEW how much pain I'm in and they wanted to help me. 

So, they are going to run a couple more tests, but think that this surgery is probably the right thing for me.  Dr. Khan is going to perform an EGD, which is basically an Upper GI endoscopy.  They are also going to order another MRI - they've been developing some new algorhythms to better view not only the pancreas, but other organs like the liver where my islets will be living.  And I think they're also going to run more bloodwork.  They said they are going to try to expedite everything so I can get into surgery as soon as possible.  The long pole will be the insurance approval, so that is being started right now.  It's still likely at least a month out.  I will still go out for my consult in MN at the beginning of Feb and will make a final decision from there.

Friday, January 6, 2012

The stent is out!

Yay, I'm so happy! Now we've got to cross our fingers that it was the source of the pain!

The procedure went pretty well. They only had to stick me twice for the IV. Then they gave me a shot of nausea medicine, which is nice because I was really nauseous and getting it by IV is much stronger/more effective. For the procedure, he wanted to do sedation rather then general like last time. Sadly, I have a high tolerance for pain medicine so they had to give me a TON of stuff to knock me out, which made waking up very difficult. But I finally cleared my head enough so they let me go home.

Everything about today was so unorganized. Yesterday, scheduling told me my appt was at 8:30. Then 2 hours later someone called to get insurance info, etc. She told me that my appt was at 8:00 and verified that since I was told 8:30 before. They called me back for all the prep, and then I sat around waiting for an hour. The GI clinic had 8:00 down and the drs had 8:30. Then, some nurses were saying I was having general anesthesia but others said just sedation. Amazing.

And to top it all off, my stent fell out by itself sometime between yesterday when I had the xray and this morning. So the whole procedure was unnecessary anyway.

Oh, and I meet with Dr. Khan on Monday afternoon. He is the GI/pancreas specialist to plan a path forward for me, including possibly the TP-IAT.

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Thursday, January 5, 2012

My stent is still there!

Yay! I went down for my xray today and they said that it's still there. He's going to pull it out tomorrow morning. I'm hope hope hoping that this is what's hurting me! Pulling it should be quick and easy - they do it via the endoscope. They knock me out, go in with the scope, and yank it out. No overnight stay because they're not cutting anything. I promise I'll update my blog once it's out. It may take a day or 2 to feel better since pulling the stent could possibly irritate my pancreas. My appt is at 8:30 am.

What's sad is that after I got the xray, the tech said that he didn't see a stent. He wouldn't let me see the screen, but I told him exactly where it was and what it looked like, and then he said he could see it. Then I got 2 copies on CD and went up to Dr. C's office and talked to Angie, his admin. She couldn't pull it up in my file - it wasn't there yet. So I gave her a copy of the CD. She took it back to Dr. C who looked at it and called me 5 min later saying he wants to pull it tomorrow. I swear, if I didn't need him to pull it, I wouldn't need any doctors! I'll just do it myself...

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Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Nothing new to report

Still not a whole lot of action. Dr. C ordered ANOTHER xray to see if the stent is still there. It's frustrating - the last one was on Fri, so 5 days ago. What was the point in having it done if it takes him 5 days to respond? I asked if they could just schedule the removal and I would do the xray right beforehand, and we could cancel if it's out. He said no - he couldn't schedule the removal until he knew that it was still there. Grrr... But, I kinda think it has fallen out anyway. That right sided pain that was new is gone now - just back to the left side pressure and gnawing. So, I didn't make it down to the hospital today, too sick. I tried eating some noodles yesterday and still haven't fully recovered from that yet. Hopefully tomorrow I can make it down there. He's also submitting orders for a dietician and the pain clinic, but no mention of a referral to Dr. Rilo (the pancreas surgeon) that I asked him about.

The lady from the Pancreatitis Center at UMC here in Tucson called me today.  She's going to look through all my records to see if they've got everything they need and then call me back (probably tomorrow).  She said since I'm local, they can probably get me in next week.  (Not sure why that makes a difference...) She's going to set me up with Dr. Khan, who is their GI/pancreatic specialist.  From there, he'll make a recommendation on whether or not to do surgery.  I am SO done with all this right now - I just want this beast out.  I totally know what others mean when they say they don't even care about whether they'll get diabetes.  Of course I don't want that, but I know that can be controlled much better than this pain.  I just can't get comfortable - I lay in bed day in and day out.  Just getting up to make the kids dinner is a huge ordeal.  I even make them bring their homework into my bedroom now because it hurts too much to get up and help them.

I also got an email from the University of Minnesota clinic today.  They are going to be doing extensive testing (another endoscopic ultrasound with pancreatic function tests, blood glucose tests, digestion tests and another MRI), then I'm meeting with the social worker, the surgeon (Dr. Dunn - I've never seen her before) and Dr. Freeman (who saved my life).  Those appts are Jan 30 - Feb 1.  I sent a note today asking if we could just get all the insurance approvals done now and just have my pancreas yanked while I'm up there.  I don't think they'll go for it, but I have to ask! I think it's usually a couple months wait once you're approved.  The equipment they use to isolate the islet cells is in heavy use, so they can usually only do 1-2 of these surgeries a week, and it's a long waiting list.  I'm amazed that there are so many people who have the same condition I do, but it took 2.5 years to actually get a diagnosis.  And I know that there are people in much worse shape than I am, but I'm starting to reach the end of my rope now.  Please pray for a speedy process - whatever that may end up being!!!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Still waiting...

Well, I still haven't heard back from my dr on the stent removal. His admin filled out the order and brought it to him in the OR - I guess he's been swamped. I know other people are hurting too, but I wish he could fix people a little faster! I tried eating some noodles today and ended up puking the rest of the day. I just feel lousy. :-(

I found a dietician via the Pancreatitis Center website, but wont schedule an appt until my GI orders it. When I asked the GI, he said that I don't need a referral, grrr... Same with pain management. Nothing is easy in this town!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Santa Belly!




Back in 1991, ABC showed a "real exorcism" on tv.  The demon inside was named Minga.  I remember at the time running around the house shouting, "Minga don't want to leave! Minga no go!" I have now decided to nickname my pancreas Minga.  (On this show, Minga's a short African lady, but I'm sure she could morph into an Anglo pancreas if she wants to!)  Fast forward to about 7:00 in the clip - I can't figure out how to crop the video.  Note at about 7:38, the girl starts speaking in tongues...it sounds like she's yelling, "Santa Belly!"  This also fits well, as I can be perfectly described as Santa Belly.  2 months on a liquid diet and I still look like a bowl full of jelly... Now I just need an exorcism to get this awful beast out of me!

In related news...the beast is still thriving within.  We're hoping that it's the stent giving me issues and it just needs to come out.  That's what happened last time.  I was starting to feel a bit better this morning, so I tried a half bowl of soup and it did not go well.  So, as long as I can lay in bed, not move, and not eat, I'm doing just fine!  I left a message for Dr Cunningham that I had a big basket of Ghirardelli chocolate waiting for him, but I'm taking out one piece each day until he sees me.  I expect that I'll get my stent pulled first thing Tuesday morning!  :-)

The kids start back to school tomorrow morning - yay!  It's good for all of us to get into a routine, even if that routine is homework...