I'm sitting in the hospital having an upper GI and small bowel study. Nothing exciting, just drinking some barium. But...on the pre-exam xray, the radiologist saw an odd little blob right where my pain is. He had no idea what it was. After I drank the barium, you couldn't see it anymore. I don't know what that means - that it was just an artifact or that the barium blocked it out. I so hope it's real. I know that sounds awful, but having something to explain all this pain would mean I can do something about it! (And I'm not just a drug-seeking hypochondriac...) At the end of the test, he said the blob got smaller so was probably something more like food rather than a cyst or stone. He saw no obstructions or strictures or anything, so it sounds like another waste of time with no answers... :-(
Otherwise, there's not a whole lot to report. Frankly, I feel like shit. I'm trying my very best to start living a semi-normal life and just accept that this is how I'm going to be. Most of it is mental anyway, I'm sure. I'm not going to give up looking for answers and relief, and I still really need all your prayers from that. It's so hard to stay positive when there's no end in sight.
Dr. Dunn has been amazing. She's been talking to my local docs, reviewing test results, and consulting with her colleagues to come up with a plan of action for me. I really need a hero right now and she's doing that. Louise has been just as wonderful - hammering down on doctors for charts and answers. I just wish it could all be faster!
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